option in life

I wanna pen down my thought but i think i sldn't. Agrrrhhh! The feeling is terrible. 

Meanwhile September has  been treating me well so far but it seems like there is an important decision i have to make. hmmm... I think i like it? Please be kind to me the next 2 weeks please! :) 

  

Surviving through the rough patch

I met a friend who told me that I looked more haggard now comparing to 3 months ago when he saw me. I am feeling the fatigue now already, physically and mentally. (if you are reading this now, I just wanna be alone now, don’t try… that’s the best you can do for me now)

I really felt the hardship of working when whatever you do is wrong. I don’t know how long I can withstand this but for the sake of not disappointing those who cared, I will brave through. But because of those who cared, the more I feel like giving up so as not to give them anymore trouble :’( 

Meanwhile, someone shared this quote with me yesterday which I thot it would be meaningful to share

  “You can please some of the people all of the time, you can please all of the people some of the time, but you can’t please all of the people all of the time"

Despite not being productive at work, I still thanks god for sending lovely people around me. Oh well now I realised life isn’t too tough for me afterall!

Tomorrow gonna be a better day! :D

Losing myself

I haven't been copping well with my job, my life infact...

I feel like i am losing myself or either i don't know which is my true self?  

My lifestyle have been very healthy the past few years but it seems to have changed recently.

Many many late night party, drinking, etc but I think i can still resist smoking? haha 

I wonder if it is the effect of working, being single or part of growing up? 

I spend almost all my time with the same person the past years, but now i don't know how else to spend my time...

I am giving my best to my career and to distract myself from my messed up r/s, thus my only entertainment probably starts in the late night. The only kind of entertainment i think? All these seems like a vicious cycle so much so that, i am more troubled now. I probably shouldn't elaborate too much about this. 

 Oh wellsssss, other than the mental stress i am feeling right now, my uniform is burstinggggg! So i conclude that late night dinning and drinking is fattening! Even skinny girl like me grew fatter after many late night dinning and drinking. 

Before i end this post, may i be greedy to ask and hope for things to go my way and also for me to excel in my career please?????? Been feeling despair and remorse for how badly i fare at work. :((((((((((((((((((((( Coincidentally, when i thought of giving up, i received a text from someone i least expect! I wonder if anyone said something, but this text really perks me up. Lets look forward to a better tomorrow!

p.s Macaroons and ice cream is my happy pills now! i miss you and i love you! JIAYOU AMANDA!

Helloooooooooo! I am back to this space of mine! I wonder if anyone miss me here? hehehe

I am back to blogging because of the same reason how i started blogging which i dun exactly think is a good thing? Ha Ha Ha...

Just a little Quick update! I OFFICIALLY GRADUATED! (quite a long long time infact?)

Was really looking forward to the next phrase of life which is WORKING!
Buttttttttt i ended up doing this quite often .....

Having much trouble and having to chill out with friends to get some drinks after work.  My anesthesia!
But because i am actually not so good at drinking i only stop after the 1st or maximum 2nd glass! The  next moment i feel like sleeping already! I am lousy and i know it!
Nothing is worth destroying my health or complexion and definitely i won't wanna let my parents be worried about me.

trouble trouble trouble! Oh wellsssssssssssss, when i was about to pen down my thoughts, i really wonder if i want anyone to read this posts or can i let anyone read these posts. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm i think i cant care much for now??? i doubt anyone will be reading this at least for now!

p.s I shall smile to myself whenever i look into my reflection to remind myself to be happy no matter what happens as life goes on! The trouble i faced today is nothing compared to others. I am probably too protected by my parents in the past! :)